My introduction into the dark world of drugs and sexual abuse started when I was four years of age. At this age I knew what a hypodermic needle was, and was gathering marijuana leaves out of my parents back yard, where they grew it. Both of my parents were heroin addicts and because of our dysfunctional lifestyle, I lived with, and was practically raised by, my great-grandmother, who owned a twenty-four room mansion in West Los Angeles.  Although she loved my sister, brother, and myself, it was in her home that we children were introduced to a cycle of sexual abuse.She took in male and female boarders, and my parents prostituted my older sister and brother to these boarders to finance their drug habits. Men of all ages took advantage of my innocence and would entice me to allow them to violate me sexually. My parents would have drinking parties, and us children would drain the empty bottles of beer and wine after everyone had left. 

            Physical abuse was also a dramatic part of this period of our lives. In their frustration and anger, our parents would flog us with electric cords and different wooden bed slats. They themselves were physically violent toward one another, and we children often tried to intervene into their fist fights. The worst betrayal from my parents came when I was sold as a “love” slave as a baby to their drug supplier, who was also a family friend and my spiritual godfather. Like all pedophiles, he gained my acceptance and confidence by making me feel that I was someone special to him. Little did I realize that his small deeds of kindness were all a part of his plan, which was, as I was physically developing, to perpetrate me and keep me in some dinky motel room where I was repeatedly subjected to forms of child abuse and molestation. After a period of time, something deep inside of me began to witness that there was something dramatically wrong with what was happening. One day as I resisted his advances, I asked him, “Why are you doing this to me?” His answer was, “How do you think your parents support their drug habit?” He then informed me that my parents had sold me to him. This abuse stopped as I began to have my menstrual cycles. 

            The greatest of all betrayal and wounding came as I realized that my parents, the ones that God had ordained to protect me, were the ones that had violated that sacred trust, and were actually the people responsible for the perpetration of my body and soul. At fourteen years of age, I became the lead singer of a group called “The Superbs.” We cut two hit records and had appearances on American Band Stand, Cassie Cassim, Shabang, etc. In retrospect, I can see how the Lord, in His infinite wisdom, protected me from the total devastation and destruction of my self image. However, because of my exploitation and shame, a cycle of abuse had been started in my life. Like many victims of abuse, I began to draw to myself the “wrong” type of relationships, and each ended in some form of abuse or another.  Two marriages ended in divorce.

           A dramatic change took place in my life in 1979 when I received Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. Shackles of bondage were broken off my life as He graciously and gently poured His healing love into the  areas of my wounded soul. Much of my past was covered by what has been termed “The regressed memory syndrome.” It was not until I received counseling and ministry at Dr. Dewberry's church, En Agape Christian Fellowship, whose senior pastor (Dr. Dewberry) specializes in this field of ministry, that I was led gently into wholeness by his pastoral care and counseling, and his dedicated staff. Today, the Lord has anointed me with a special ministry towards women. “Precious Women of God” has been establish to encourage women to find their true destiny in life and walk in freedom from the negative cycles of life that have been established by some form of abuse that has broken down their moral boundaries.

The second video of Ps. Eleanora can be found here:

 http://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL07696BC80259CD85

Provided by Mount Olive Ministries located in the UK